Right. So rather than make this a blog in which every single post is a list of excuses as to why I haven’t blogged we are going to change directions a bit.
When I started this blog it was a fun way of twiddling away the late night hours be they in my living room or Liam’s bedroom or even in Liam’s hospital room. Short posts, jokes, book and movie reviews, you tube clips and music, I’d just post whatever I felt like posting. It was fun. No readers meant no expectations, it also meant no pressure.
Then I wrote a couple of essays about what it was like to spend time in the PICU and all of a sudden I had readers. Not just the few family and friends checking for updates on Liam – I’m talking about readers who I had never met in real life. Readers who read something I wrote about being a parent of a special needs child and actually liked it enough to come back and read some more. It wasn’t very long after those essays posted that Karin and Liam and I found ourselves on TV! All thanks to this blog and a few little pieces I wrote in it. At that time, it was still fun.
After that series of essays concluded I came to the realization that people out there were actually reading and enjoying things that I had written. And that’s when I messed it all up. Suddenly every post had to be a big important essay. Every post had to be about seizures and ventilators and what it’s like to be the parent of a child with special needs.
I need to bring back the fun.
I post late at night. Sometimes Liam falls right to sleep and I have enough energy to put together some long, well thought out blog. More often than not though, the idea of writing an essay about that day’s seizures or the 4 hour doctor’s appointment that morning is too exhausting to attempt. It’s much easier to put on Netflix and relax.
Please understand that this is not to say that posts about parenting, special needs, and other longer posts will disappear. Just that in between those posts you may get a few more little nuggets about books I’m reading, or music I’m listening to, or my most recent obsession with home brewing (I’ll be bottling my first batch on saturday.)
I do envy and admire bloggers like Mike (Marissa’s Bunny) and Ellen (Love that Max) for their tireless dedication to blogging about their children’s special needs and how it affects their families and lives. I like to think that I do a pretty good job here of showing what life is like in the Olson house, but in addition to being Liam’s Dad, a position I am lucky and proud to hold, I’m also just Eric and this is my blog.